The slender thread

Today was the day that he passes. This house this house that speaks without words. Deep heaviness said he was going to stop today. So I pretended in my mind that I could not hear its voice. I got up and did my yoga fed my chickens got the mail Went Out jumped in the hot tub.
I pushed it out of my mind in my heart begged he would come.
I went to my closet and pick out a skirt that I would wear nothing underneath and a top that he would slide up gently it was silk. And I said at least I will be ready if he comes.
It was my Christmas wish. All that I had wanted for several weeks was to fill fill one of his fantasies. And it had become mine over these years.
I was sitting in my room in the sitting room waiting to watch his truck pass when all of a sudden I heard it out in front of my house.