He, the husband seems to have a sense of relief. In the hot tub last night he even said "even I would have a hard time having sex with me after all I have done"
It seems like such a relief for us both. Still there are mind games, but I don't take the bate, and it is so clear and there is not the struggle to be a spouse.
Like today it was "can I eat you?" then it was a mean jerk away, same thing about sex this afternoon. But I was just not into responding the same old way. I just looked on in acceptance like "here you own this, It is yours, the response you want isn't here anymore."
It has been a pleasant day.
I told him I would see what was in the freezer for dinner. At that I said I found some steak and lobster. He was easily convinced that he had bought and forgot.
It was the lobster I bought for the truck diver. He was never able to come here for it.
Just feel like it is time for a clean slate. So that something good will happen.
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