it's funny

How he makes my whole being smile. I wake up from singing, and laughing in my sleep.

sitting here watching my lover chat with ...

The husband about his moose hunting trip. I love hearing his voice. As he walked through the kitchen he stopped to talk little about what i was doing, cleaning the galley. What a mess it had been. The smile on his face was so huge, I could see the blush start in hid cheeks.
"Do you want the McCormick's out there" No I say it is for the package store, as I move toward him in the storage room he sticks out his tongue and moves his hips..."next week" Yes I say, Thursday, or Friday.

As he continues his chat with Husband, I hear him say" haven't been here all summer" Husband reminds he has, "how was the green house this year, did it produce for you" he says to husband, No I say from the other room. ...chuckle no......

Something must be wrong with me

I am in a hotel room, and I can't think of who else I would rather fuck in this room . Yes it is date night.....I hate dating the husband. Why oh why did I make that suggestion. WTF

Before

Invited the husband to

Take this class with me. He is now saying I never invited him. And I did. He is just driving me nuts. One more week. Yea!

I will be writing

Everything from my phone. I have escaped ...well in a way. I have a board meeting. But I am taking a class in glass fusion. I will post pictures. Things at home are just weird. I was so stressed. Just want to get back to sex....and otherwise normal living.

I met with an old friend

I had not seen her in a year or better. Her husband was at the home stead getting it ready for  the Iditarod. She liked so run down. A once beautiful woman. She said she didn't feel anything anymore. She works full time and cared for her dying father in law. Her husband is so critical if her every thought.

I invited her to the full moon gathering but she declined. He did not allow her any spiritual activities.

I put her name on a list to go to the mother drum.

the husband is home

He is all nicey nicey. But has emptied our account. "So I think we should celebrate our wedding anniversary" why I say we never have ever before. Nor Christmas, nor Easter, not.......  we don't eat meals together , there is no date night. Very empty relationship. His friends  hate me. Always have but I don't drink or party so that could be it.

Life is truly off the social grid here. Lol.

But tonight I take my drum to a moon gathering. Tell you about it later.

I need a bedtime story....

gives go fork yourself new meaning

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just feeling old.....

And not very sexy. I have just been so vulnerable.  My marriage is falling apart, and I feel like I am free falling. I can't. Get sure footed as I am always in control.  I hurt my back , slipped disk, was almost medavaced out a few months ago. My Doc says it is Ok to feel this way, I say fuck that shit, but....I don't have the strength.  Just need to get my life back. I just need a new lover.  Let's just put that into the universe why don't we.

My first ones were not band aids......

They were friends. We stayed friends even after. Just like lovers and husbands had always been in my life.

The new ones are just to take the sting away from this lonely marriage, and the feelings I have for a truck driver who can't see it.

He can't see how easy it is to love freely, deeply.

I am going weary of band aids, they don't heal, can leave  a scare, and never go deep enough.

her voice was calm, confident......

"This is Art's wife "she said. I was shaken as I had not heard from him  in a while, we talked every morning, and sometimes at night when the husband was not at home.
He was my confidant, I could tell him anything.....even that I loved him. We had an understanding. "It is like ...something I have never felt" He said. But there were families, A wife, a Husband, business.

One day in early spring he called looking for a place to stay for the summer . I gave him recommendations, and told him we had to offer. Not really what he was looking for. But he called again, we talked more. I couldn't help but feel a palatable attraction to him. Knowing I would never meet him I allowed myself that simple pleasure.

He arrived in late April. He set up his trailer close to a phone hookup, and the bar. His crew in tow, they were placed out back.

He found every way he could to be close to me. He would stop me in my tracks as served customers, seat me by the fire, and rub my feet. My neck and back.

As he was leaving the bar one night, he turned "you Know I have have dreams of you at night" I told him I knew that, and reveled to him what they were. His eyes grew big, "you  can't know that" But I did. I knew months ago.

One day while I was getting water, he came into the water house, took me in his arms, I pushed him away, "no I can't, you are my friend, I love you" He said" And I love you too" He kissed me.

It was game we had to have each other sigh, like a seek attack. I left my worn silk panties in his trailer as he requested. I left messages on his phone for him to hear at lunch. I slept next to him, when the husband was at work. We hung out together, like friends.

I had not heard from him in a while, but somehow I knew not to call.

She went on to say, "he passed last week, it was hard, he suffered. I knew he would want me to let you know"  I thanked her, told how sorry I was for her loss.

We were cordial, but I think she knew.

Just let it be.........

Your  words have different meanings, even the sound of your voice, it's tone vibrates places in me ...I could only understand from being with so many just to cleans you from my palate.

All the band aides I have used to fill in the blanks, no the thirst and craving I had for you.

You sigh and shudder in my arms, "you are not like the others" Others? I take pause, "how am I not like the others?" I say. "You , you drive me crazy"

After years of running from this, With no relief I let go, I embrace you with my whole being, just to make it stop.

FFF.......the obligation

Forbidden Words = Payment,

 Prostitution
Extra Credit = Make it personal
Bonus Words = 25 extra for explaining the tuxedos, 25 more if this isn't about the money
quick and simple this week.Spread the word, spread the love, let's have some fun!



"How was your day dear" I could hear
 it in his voice before he even said it. God, yet another dinner and drinks to get the high rollers to part with their "hard earned " inheritance.  "Go ahead, tell me. Who do we have to go begging to this time" I said with irritation.8

"oh come on hon, thus time it will be fun i promise, and you can wear that new dress, the I bought for you"

"With the slit up to my ass!!! really? What the hell I thought, anything to support the Arts, and I do love the Arts.

The restaurant was cozy and dark. We waited at the bar. "Have another hon, it looks like they are running late".  Why should they come at all, I thought more small talk.

Ahhh Hello Leo, Edna, Have a seat, "  "Let's skip the small talk tonight, shall we, we know why we are here" Thank God , opps I must have said it out loud because they all turned to me with a relived look.

Then lets proceed. Leo said ".  At that point the music started, he reached for my hand, I stood up looked at my husband, He shooed me to go. I was feeling woozy from the drinks the room grew darker it seemed.

Before I knew it I was in another room, there were candles, My dress slipped to the floor, as Leo Softly kissed my shoulders.

Gently I felt my body slide to a caise. In my mind I was thinking "i should stop this, but it feels ok somehow"

Licking down the front of me to my clean shave pussy he licked, then I felt penetration, Looking up it was my husband, turning my head there sat Leo, and Edna, watching in the dim candle light.

"Morning hon.....the check came $500,000.00"

Wow



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preparations for his visit...

The house was  cleaned, set up the sauna, made his bed sweet with lavender,  and ylang ylang.  Then did regular chores.  Painted decks on cabins, started scraping picnic tables for painting.  All the things husband tells people he doses.  Like getting  wood, I hire  it out or buy it and stack it. Building the sauna, cutting brush. All things he says he dose,  but I do, or hire out. Love this place, it would be any one's dream. To work side by  side with a partner.  But his sabotage and drinking are hard to dodge. I get the work done.  my retreats are in the arms of strangers.

very busy day

Had a board  meeting . Then had lots of errands to run before having a crown seated.
Had to replace all my painting stuff. Husband moved it sll. So I am behind in doing chores. All the porches need painting, and so do the picnic tables. But first they need scraped.

But it was a good day . Another nice night watching meteors.

a quake races through me.......

As I prepare for Wednesday.  It makes me dizzy thinking , should I first put you in the hot sauna, bath you with sudsy water, letting it run down the crack of your ass, teasing you for what is to come.....

Heading home

Salmon slayer

Tastes like a hang over

I am sending some pictures your way to help illustrate my life

Just found this app . I am in Valdez alaska. Fishing . Caught a nice silver today . Not a Debby winner, but caught it on my new rod.

is that what happens when you wait so long for something. ....

He walked in the door, took off his gloves, "I can stay the night next week" he said . I reply that I would like that, and what should I fix you to eat, he says anything I am easy to please.

I had been waiting for those words for almost three years now. Since it all began, somehow in my head I thought this would be the big romance of my life. That he would end my sorrow, loneliness, and fill me.

In some respects he did. I starting singing again, I am painting and showing my work. Mostly I am back being me, the thing i missed most in all this was myself. The fun loving playful side had all but disappeared.

I was in my robe, I did not expect him till Friday morning. My hair was a wreck, and I had just put my night cream on. The rumble of the big simi and jake break in my drive took me by surprise in a way.

An hour before I started to tremble, and my thoughts were interrupted by feelings as if my soul were saying " I don't love anymore...I don't need you like I used to....I can make this all disappear..."  It is so odd how I feel him.

He asked what I was wearing under my robe, not much, I pulled it aside to to let him see my pussy. Walking forward he slipped his fingers in me, " your wet " he said, Do you have a moment....he placed me on one of the long tables in the big dinning room.

I faced him, his hands lightly squeezing my breast alternately touching my clit. He then said he wanted me from behind, so I flipped. He said I want to fuck your ass, I was wanting it too. Even though in the past I never liked it, hated it in fact. But now I wanted it, hungered it.

I ran to the bedroom to get some lube.

I slipped to my knees, "I need to suck you" He agreed. As I took him in, he told me it was ok to touch him anywhere, he loved his ass touched "it turns me on to have my ass licked, Will you do that to me, ...I said yes. I kissed as much as I could reach as he stood.

We ended up on the couch in front of the fire place, My knees on the cushions facing over the back. He started slowly, But I hungrily pulled him in, backing toward him. He called out, "you are so tight, I Wasn't expecting...ahhhhh so good, are you ok, I was cumming so hard, I could barely speak. He said " i am going to cum, cum with me, cum with me, ahhhhhh...

He pulled out slowly, went in the bathroom to wash up. Then went to the truck to bring the order in. I wrote the check, we exchanged chit chat, He asked how my garden did this year, I said ok, I didn't get to plant one thing I wanted. He chuckle, "we planted it last year, " . I took him in the garden. Before he could leave, I kissed his sweaty neck.

He turned , " I will call Wenesday"

FFF The other woman....

FFF Prompt for Aug 9 - Her Story

Required Phrase - advertisement and/or flyerWord length - 320 (3 songs for $20)Forbidden words - Stripper, bastard, appetizerBonus Points - reflect the viewpoint of both womenExtra Credit words - Tell us worst experience with a stripper or at a strip club (50 words) and/or, your best (25 words)

It was a Friday night , we had nothing planed as usual. The husband got a call, grunted he was meeting friends for a drink. I knew what that meant, I would not see him til Sunday night.
But this time I just didn't want to be stuck home with the kids, same old same old, church on Sunday, work on Monday.
So I called a friend to baby sit "so is Fred taking you out, really?!" Embarrasses to say I was going alone I shot back "yes I am meeting him at the restaurant".

I knew where he was, I knew who she was. A wife Knows these things, she knows the smell of his skin after he showers and smells the good smell of sex from deep within his skin. The deep blue of his eyes filled with wild desire. She knows even without knowing.

After dropping the kids with the sitter, I drive there. As I walk out on the stage and approach the pole I see him their. He doesn't recognize me , it has been a long time since he notice my naked flesh in boredom of our domestic lives.

She walks on stage, I see him take notice, walk to the stage and put a bill and a note in her g string. A lap dance? More?

The lights where dim, my make up sultry and heavy. He feels the connection as I Cauchy his eye, he walks forward with a dollar. As he slips it in my g string, he looks up......WTF! I see his lips move....no Fucking way? He leaves. I finish my dance, and go back stage.
My friend winks at me, how did it go out there? I laugh I think he knows its me. She said I am not sure, he just texted me stills wants our meet up and lap dance. Let's give him more than what he bargained for she says with that gin I knew from way back when.

We go to the dark room in the hall, there he sits waiting.... I wear a mask,  i have a whip, she has ties, a blind fold.

He Snickers will this cost more? No she says, just a thank you for being a good customer.

I undo his tie, she she undoes his pants, he is stripped naked, his skin has goose bumps, but the room is warm.

I take his ridged cock in my mouth, sliding my tongue on the seam of his balls, licking lightly at first I move to his taint, pressing my tongue deep. I finger his ass.

She is kissing him deeply, first his lips, then his neck, his nipples erect, she licks, and nibbles them. then the soft skin of his shoulder, and under his arm,  he sighs, "no toys , no feathers? he says".  "Shut up', she whips the tip of his dick. Uggg he shudders, then sighs. "Alright then he says, she whips his flesh, he crys '"more!!!" She says "enough!,  we both stop what we are doing ..'the submissive dose not tell his master what to do!" " Sorry" he says.
"That's better" We lick, and hold back as to not make him cum, he struggles as she lets him know the consequences of cumming too soon.

'Who should have the honor of your sweet?" She asks me...."me  he whispers, "no, me she says, he can only hear her lap my sweet pussy, as gush in her mouth. "Sloppy seconds is what you get, what you deserve" she says to him in a demeaning voice. she licks me on his lips. I take her nipples in my mouth, slide down on her, ahhh she is sweet, i take her cum in my mouth, she allows him a tastes, I kiss him deeply.

He cums hard with out our touching him, just what we wanted.
We lap his goodness up, , taste it from ea h others lips, then kiss him deeply. We share him.


He walks in the door, nothing new, no questions, no answers...don't ask don't tell. I guess that is what they call it. Life goes on as usual.

My phone beeps, "who is that? He ask....." just the the Sunday school teacher I say, she is sick and wants me take her class."
Good wifey he says.
I text back, "no he dose not suspect a thing. Hi five sista!!!

After all we where friends in college. She would never betray a sorority sister..

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Bonus Points -

The woman in the audience is thinking she wants to be up there, she wants to be wanted in thoughts of men. As she looks around the room she longs for those hungry looks to be about her, in her mind she goes there, feeling wet, it scares her a little.

The woman on the pole, she thinks 'how many $s will I make tonight, will that woman with the funny look ask for a lap dance? The pole is so cold tonight. Can't wait to get out of here.
extra credit answer
So my sister had this great idea, there was a small strip club in town...Wasilla, ( another good strip club story, Sarah Palin our then Mayor, decided it was ok for the local strip club to have a float in the 4th of July parade, so there we sit with our kids, and the new neighbors we invited, and here passes this float with scantly clad women, in t-shirts, sitting in kiddie pools of water with guys spraying them with water, yup tits exposed, thanks Sarah.)

But I digress,  so the sister decides we need to go to the strip club,. This was after my friend and church choir directer stops in. She's game.  We get in the car and drive over there.  My friend can't hold her licquor so she is drunk right away. next thing we know she is gone, we end up in the parking lot dranging her ass out of some guys truck. My least favorite monment is when i decided to get on stageand  climb the pole. i get booed off and am asked to leave.

Posting/checking in at the blood bank on facebook.....

That's just fucked man. We all know you are there getting a free aids test...really?  Then it was told to me  by your  friend you fucked the big  titted waitress in Talkeetna,  no doubt without protection.

Even more fucked up....your daughter posts under it...LoL father daughter bonding time....shit that's fucked up.

I am going fishing this weekeend

I am being rescued! House sitters are in place, my new 9lbs fly rod has arrived. Tomorrow I pack the car and head to Valdez Alaska, for the woman's Fishing Derby. I can't wait!!! And the bonus....My friend said my hair looked wild, crazy and wonderful. So my trout unlimited cap wiĺl only be used for what it is meant for.

FFF last weeks....

Flash Fiction Friday Prompt (8/2) - Abandoned

Sorry for the last post (even though it is only Tuesday).We've had such wonderful work these past few weeks.  New authors, creative ideas, body counts high and low, and lots of good sex.  Let's keep up the good work!!!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Key words: (Must use both) - Abandonedand sprintWord Limit = 250 per sectionForbidden words  - Any store name, "thong", boxesBonus Words (25 per secton) - keep everyone aliveExtra Credit - Tell us about the sexiest NEW person you've met/interacted with this week (current spouses and lovers et all, not allowed)++++++++++if you are new to Flash Fiction Friday, clickHERE! for all the isntructions.  And we'll see you all on Friday!My post will go up on Thursday at 8:00 PM PST.xoxoAnd, if you want to see what I've done in the past,


It is getting to be dark at night. Just for a few hours right at about 11-1 am. it always gets me, that feeling of needing to hibernate, get things stored, prepare for the slower pace that cold brings on.

Time to find someone to bed down with. We would always laugh at such a phase, look who she or he is being kept warm with this winter, wonder if the light of spring, the truth of the long days of summer will prove them.

What a sorrowful thing to be left to spend the winter alone, abandon to endless dark with no moan, no sigh.

It came as such a surprise. I was sprinting to my car as the August rain drenched me, as I opened the door, he saw me, and asked to sit inside. We chatted for  a while. Then he asked to go hiking with me next weekend. at Eklutna Lake. The leaves were starting to change color, and the teal blue of the glacier lake in contrast was breath taking. We agreed to meet at the trail head, I brought lunch, he brought wine and a blanket.

The long climb to the saddle at tree line took about an hour. There we prepared for lunch. Instead he undid his belt, unzipped. his cock was pink and rigid, I took him in my mouth sucking him till he came and I could taste the sweetness. His body tremered, as he moaned softly.

Mmmmm a delicious appetizer, and so relaxing for us both.

He kept me warm that winter, and on and off the following.
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ahhhhhhhhhh my soul feels free, I can breathe. .....

The husband is gone, even the the house has a brightness to its spirit. How can one person suck the life out of me so? Now to catch up on FFF writing and  all of you......missed you.

husband is leaving tomorrow. ....

He placed an order, so I will get a delivery Thursday or Friday,  hopefully I will get the bonus. Has been so Long I think he has forgotten me, I need a real lover. Once a week over night,, makes me laugh, is a real person, no games, doesn't want to change their situation,...... and likes to fishing.

facebook page has been hacked

After I decided I would not be involved with the truck driver put an add on AshlyMaddison.con. after seven months of guys who want blow jobs in parking lots, cyber, to be a very girls sugar daddy (none of which I dìd or could do at my age)...I met Max. He was very nice sweet in fact, romantic, he was very into kink and setting up sences.

We first met at a hotel, I really wanted a one night stand, but after our first meet he wanted to see me again. He was bi and wanted a three some with his friend.      He also wanted a sub dom thing with this woman he met on Craig's list. So he set us up to talk on the phone and get to know each other. She seemed very naive.

Later it came out that she and Max had told her husband that she was the cover for my affair with Max..I do not need a cover, I can handle my fucking affair thank you very much. Well little miss wonderful told her hair dresser, told her pedicurist's, told her friends at church. She also had her kids met Max. Low and behold one of them got mad and spilled the beans.

But it was all right because Max was telling her he wanted her and her nine children to move in with him. I fact he was seeing Man other women and saying the same thing. It was his game.

Fortunately I am old and really of no     interest to a man his age. Also to me he was just a fuck, and to him I was he same, also a sort of confidant.

When I was let in on what was going on was through Face book. She would also post on face book her meet ups.  She friended Max, and me as well.

She was mean and derogatory me. I finally defriended her. But one day she said her husband found out, and that she said it was me having the affair, so if              he called I was to say this. Well this did not sit well with me, it would blow my well laid cover.

I asked if she were in and danger and              to call me. No call, but she posted her date with max that night.

Still no call.

So as I am an early riser, I went to he face book page ......

Good Morning, I did not get your call explaining why you used me as your cover for your affair, have a good day. It was till 2pm.

She no longer has a face book page, just one that has no friends, no picture.

Yesterday I was at my friends restaurant, she said go see the new artist I have here. Sure as shit it was her. I had just had a show there.  She then said the artist would be woring at my friends place, the book seller. too weird, I wonder what is going on.

Also an POF man I met is also seeing a woman who is in love with max.........what is going on??

a very trying few days

A friend asked me to help her move. I think she had forgotten that my I had recently ruptured a disk in my lower back and was three weeks into my recovery,  just now being able to feel something in my leg, and walk. I told I could possibly do light cleaning, and be morale support fetching coffee,  and food.

I ended up, deep cleaning kitchen cabinets,  bathroom,  and packing and hauling boxes. All while her 20 yr old daughter talked on her cell, laid on the floor playing games /texting on phone.

The daughter was suppose to have put her stuff in storage till she moved to the dorms (possibly,  but free room and board from her mom that can't afford it is best, especially when mom allows underage drinking and drugs).

So here I am trying to help her move with all her daughter's stuff everywhere.  ? So I volunteered to help take her stuff to storage,  mom said no, I put it in the hall as to get it out of the way. We got almost everything moved, and I offered to help pay for more time from the mover so more heavy objects would be done.

I took her to dinner the night before (not that I had any intentions of paying her half) then I need a pedicure so she said she needed one too, I ended up paying for that too because she said that she forgot they didn't take atm cards there. So , half way through the move she asked for $500.00 to help her pay for rent. I was stunned!

I said if we get this done today I may be able to help, knowing she had no chance in hell of ever paying me back, and she also needed her deposit back. So we get up the next day, we didn't finish needless to say, and I helped her take a load to the good will, then a load to a friends house that was doing a fund raising garage sale, then to get coffee, that I laid for, then back to the apartment.  To my disbelief her daughter had moved all of her stuff back in so as the we could not hardly get in.

So she moved all the stuff back out, then disappeared.  I was stuck outside the building and she was no where to be found, so I fetched my phone from my car, and texted her. She was in the office signing her new rental agreement.  Wow really. Couldn't she had told, let me in to start cleaning?

That is point I got my stuff and went home. Haven't heard from her since.

What a bitch. And I didn't pay for anything more.

Bad hair

I had my done and I hate it. Really. It looks like I came from the circus. My VOICE teacher said it looked like a shat trek character. (Crying)

Hurt my back

Stupid me I tried to help a friend. I knew better.