i miss sex....

Really I do. But I am so tired, the craziness of the husband is so tiring, confusing....but i am getting better about not buying into it. I had to do duty sex last night. Visualizing a lover didn't help, the "i really hate fucking you" feeling persisted. I didn't vomit this time, that's a plus. i hate being so down. My goal the next two two weeks is just to sleep, do things I love,and walk. Then hopefully I will get my mojo back. I had some lovely Summer sex. So wanting a new exciting lover that just sweeps me off my feet.