And so it is

I was expecting sadness.  But the utter release of tension from not sneaking around was a huge weight. 
I certainly don't want a scandal of the magnitude something like that would cause. And then there is potentially injury or death.

Plus my life is not so bad. I have the freedom of doing most anything I like. I have created a life from something that was dark, and negative.

A new lover would be nice. Will see what the future holds.